abandonment/anger

You know that you did not like being left or your parents being sick--it does not matter how you got into foster care--it matters that you where there and you don't want to make the same mistakes as your parents!
Try not to be angry and if you are, here are some things I did to take away the anger: walk for miles, sing , dance, therapy, art, rollerblade...find something to do NOT DRUGS or DRINKING--in my book: "surviving foster care and making it work for you, I will tell you why you cannot do drugs and drink!
As I have said in many of my speeches, you must have a clear head at all times as a foster kid--you never know when your going to run into vultures--people who don't mean well! You don't have to get intoxicated or high to have fun and doing drugs and drinking DO NOT take away your problems--in fact--they increase them!
If you are facing addiction issues-you may need a support group like NA or AA-you may need rehab but none of it will work until YOU decide you will not repeat your family history! 
It hurts daily to think a mother could leave a child but start to thank your family that they did not kill you and even if they left you for dead--you are alive!!! find your purpose--create one if you don't know what it is. If you listen to the universe signs, (people telling you what you are good at), you should know what your gift is and use it to release any leftover anger.
Abandonment can cause alot of anger--if you don't process what happend to you. Get therapy, take walks, write, sing, dance--whatever you can do to release the anger..it's time to enjoy life--now! Your family did you a favor (sort of)...you just have to turn it around to make yourself stronger!
You are blessed loved and be on the lookout for my book: Surving foster care and making it work for you....peace and xo
Tanya