what if you were not born?

Hi blog family! I OFTEN LIKE TO SIT BY THIS LAKE AND REFLECT ON ALL THE GOOD TIMES I HAD WITH MY BABY BROTHER ROB....ENJOY..

I have been VERY busy! I hope your holiday was wonderful, filled with  love, helping others...and then presents!! lol..

I , like many of you, have been challenge this year on many issues:
 fiance,
No love", "lack of" family,
challenged birth family, (lol)
 the law,....got a ticket.....or
 legal rulings that just are not fair
 or my and the latest; being hit in my car as we sat at a red light, by a drunk driver who only got a ticket- even though her kid was in the car!! And she hit someone else less than 2 hours later in the back...at a red light.....
 speaking of unfair!
BUT that is NOT why i write today, I write
to encourage you! We all have the same problems or issues!

When life seems unfair, silly, mean and you think you want to give up - DON"T!!!
WHY?
because you have divine purpose like anyone else: the judge who made a poor decision based on what you know is baloney, the cop who hit you,,..based on a receptionist screaming because you did something simple....like said a curse word in a joke to your friend online....
 like the teacher who gave you a C...even though you knew it was an A paper,
like the person that said you would never be anything because you were a foster kid....and now you have a master's!! lol... Life is amazing and YOU belong here as much as anyone! Never give up fighting for your freedom of speech, (try to say something meaningful lol...), your integrity or your honor!!
Always picture the world without you: (if your "lacking money, relationships...that is not important)..
what would your little brother, sister or friend have done without YOU in there lives???
 don't be selfish, SOMEONE in this world needs you,
 it may be only for a moment or a life time
but YOU are needed! Never think of hurting yourself or anyone else -
you are needed without restrictions...lol...not in jail (where u are still needed but dang , you will have limitations)  and besides, God and the universe did not make you to sit idle (do nothing/be nothing) You are here to save or change a life with your gift...find out what that is....WHAT IF YOU WERE NOT BORN? thank the universe/God that you were, now the world may be better because of you! how thoughtful that your parents may not have been able to care for you BUT they let you live!!!! AMAZING!! MY MOM WAS AN ADDICT, I COMMEND HER FOR KNOWING SHE COULD NOT RAISE ME!! MANY WOULD BE DEAD OR WORSE OFF WITHOUT MY BIRTH!! THIS IS HOW YOU HAVE TO VIEW IT, EVEN IN HARD TIME!!!

.for the new year,  I AM THANKFUL FOR YOU!!!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! THE THOUGHT FOR THE NEW YEAR....HOW TO BUILD A BIGGER, BETTER STRONGER ME!! XO TANYA

Holiday blues..how to not lose YOUR mind when life is crazy!

R.I.P little brother!

Hi blog family! After two years I am still missing my brother! The pain gets less but I imagine it will never sink in that he is gone so young! Forgive me for not writing, as I am facing many challenges!
Yes,
it has been a while but life and all its curve balls has been calling me!

I am older and wiser but i still have my days when one error could effect me.
There are days when life can be challenging without family and I want you to know it is NOT your imagination - life is ruff - especially without a family!

Even at my age, I still long for a family. I still hope to be adopted one day-- yes, even over 40!!

 It is a human factor to want to  be loved and to be part of a family unit....this never goes "away"- you only learn to live with  the feeling and talk yourself through it daily! lol....hey if you made it this far without family, you can learn to love you enough and surround yourself around people who love and honor you like family!

On another note
the holidays are hear.
This is the highest times for suicide and loneliness.
*Even people with family who may have had conflict, wish they could be home with love ones*

.... I want you to know that even when you feel lonely and the world is against you God will always be by your side, all you have to do is BELIEVE tomorrow will be better than today!
Faith of a muster seed!
I know some of you may have been in group homes all of your life, some may have been in dysfunctional homes but YOU are the master of your destiny by keeping faith and coming up with an alternative plan! Whatever the plan, failure is not an option, giving up is not on the list!!! God did not design you to "give up"!!!

Don't ever be so discouraged that you don't realize YOU ARE IT! 
Don't ever hurt YOURSELF or ANYONE, life is too short and we ALL have divine purpose, so don't take away another's purpose, they may be the one who saved or changed a life!
 Your the reason the stars shine at night
the reason your brother, 
sister, lover, 
friend, family,
 stranger, 
has a smile on their face. 
You are the reason someone is alive today! 
Don't ever forget your ancestors died to make sure you ENJOY this life NOW, today!!!!
I know the holidays are here and it can be sad if you have no one around, I am lucky to have my two kids. I decided to make the holidays a day to go feed the homeless and then enjoy a nice dinner. This year may be all you can do to get out of your funk--HELP OTHERS...help at a food bank for the day!! Trust me you will feel better and be inspired!


Bills may be piling up, your lover gone, the news may be violent, everyone wants to keep up with the Joneses and no one has faith anymore- but you- YOU are the ONE that will change or save a life!
Stay positive, focused and keep anger out of your life, ask God to give you peace, acceptance, and constant change and growth so that you may be of service to others. You are so wonderful have a blessed week and know God is with you at ALL times, even at your darkest hour - have faith and take action to create change! xo Tanya

save the date May 19th....Fosterkidsunite will be awarding The Robert Cooper Memorial scholarship to kids aging out of foster care! Location: Mt. Kisco/NY time:TBA  all foster kids, former foster kids, community residents and any other who love to help others are invited to join in, more to come!!

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what you eat today is important! try to eat organic fruits, veggies and meat, I know its costly but in the end we are trying to fight other pollutants in the world right now, the air is toxic. Japan's nuclear explosion HAS hit our air, California the first two weeks!! If you don't have health, you have nothing! Eat to LIve" - Tanya

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